the best summer ever; because of you.
My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.
whispers of summer
her story
friends
birdsongs
memories
sunrays
sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:
Friday, May 30, 2008
secthree tcamp'08 <3! [and stargazing; again.]
secthree tcamp'08 <3!
haha much as i was complaining my head off to anyone who would listen [sorry yiting for ranting like crap] because camp dates were changed so last-minute and so inconveniently, camp pwned. srsly. who cares if i only slept for half an hour on tuesday night/wednesday morning rushing philo and attempting and failing rather terribly to print it in 15 minutes [took one and a half hours rawr] and packing for camp [which i really did in 15 minutes yayy]; because everything turned out really well. haha i even had 2 hours to sleep in school while juniors were on urban hike xD thanks, God. yearmates/juniors, you guys rocked. really. :D and it was our last camp together; thank you for making it wonderful(:butbut. there was something about the fact that camp was on weds/thursday that i mind really really terriblyyy! ):because it meant i spent an entire day in school on tuesday discussing camp stuff when i only needed to go for 2 hours initially for cac selections, which meant i couldn't do philo until 7pm bahhhh. meaning that on tuesday night i couldn't do stuff that i normally do, like reading blogs. which normally would have been fine, except that this time, i never realised you were leaving on wednesday until today when i read your blog and you said there that you were leaving on weds ._.& my goodness i srsly can't believe i let you leave without wishing you luck and saying bye to you; i'm sorry! >< i'll miss you. in fact, i am already missing you.but in any case, God bless! and you know what i told you last year; i'll always think of all you overseas people when i look to the stars(: 7:57 pm
Thursday, May 15, 2008
&where is everyone else..?
&where is everyone else..?thanks for being there whenever i need you;but it just happens to be that when i really need someone to talk to the most, no one's around ):it's always great to see a bright green "heyy i'm online" vibe, [especially yours!]but today all i got faced with were walls ofblank,stonygrey icons. )':and you tell me that it'll be okay all the time so i'll believe it [and i did!], but this time, i don't see how it can be okay;
and i honestly need you to tell me that it will really be okay so i'll believe it and stop being so terribly upset like i've been for the entire day without someone to talk to. "Love has the power of making you believe what you would normally treat with the deepest suspicion." - Mirabeau< / 3 T^T 10:02 pm
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
lit! :D
lit! :D[was going to blog ytd but i zonked out mehh]lit was...amazingly unexpected. well at least the questions were, and the characters to discuss about were too! chose qn 2, which went somewhat like 'alienation is a central issue in hedda gabler. how do the characters in the play get alienated by other characters? discuss this with respect to 2 of the 3 characters: thea, ejlert, brack.' and okay i wasn't really expecting some easy theme like hedda's need for manipulation, but alienation was.. unanticipated. and the characters too - an 'obvious choice' of character for that 'would have been hedda, so i didn't put her as a choice', i quote dr sakhar. [well he did drop hints for us to focus on the peripheral characters, though]despite the unexpectedness of the question, i somehow managed to squeeze out a 2 page 5 line essay, all in an hour, with handwriting that was actually passable, and a gazillion times neater than my sa1 handwriting haha :D and the best thing was, it was one of the rare few lit essays i actually have some confidence in yayy. must be the effect of 9 hours of analysing half the play, and wonderfully animated lit discussions(: thanks a million! :Dand sry if i didn't talk much ytd, cuz you were busy, after all >< 5:41 pm
Saturday, May 03, 2008
wonderfully and weirdly...
wonderfully and weirdly... hmm wonderful and weird things are happening to me(: i wonder why; but i thank God nonetheless. tried to do lit today, spent almost 10 hours on re-reading and analysing the play. but it was taking so long i sorta gave up and asked yiting to analyse acts 2 and 4 for me cuz i was halfway through acts 1 and 3. i'm not sure why i took so long anyway, but i can guess; i know precisely why my brain wasn't working normally today. and i'm really proud that i analysed half the play by myself.
でも、あなたがいなかった；私たちは一緒にじゃない時、同じじゃないね。 but you weren't there, and it's not the same without you. 9:57 pm
Friday, May 02, 2008
hmm stress-less myas?
hmm stress-less myas?wheeee had a major de-stress session today with yiting and shinyi. somehow, though it's the myas already, and to add to that it's sec four myas, i don't feel particularly stressed [except when i am running out of time, or when i seem to have finished my essay but there's still like 5 minutes left and i have that nagging feeling that i left out some crucial point]. we ended up lounging in the library looking at lolcats and down at the piano in the foyer [i love that grand, even with its spoilt keys(:] for like what - 70% of the time we were in school >< add to that the fact that monday's actually our most stressful day, with chem and lit.
and i so am determined to get my 4.0 for chem this year, which i foresee will be more challenging than last year, following that absolutely terrible chem spa that i'm quite sure i failed, much as i hope not ._.
but hey i'm not complaining - it was a really good breather, and we did manage to get some stuff done anyway x). and things seem to be going well nowadays [like lit discussions! :D], even if things like test results weren't as good as i'd like them to be, and somehow, it doesn't seem to be terribly nerve-wracking for me. thank God for that, honestly(:
haha i don't know why, but i have this sudden desire to just go outdoors and lie down in a lovely field or something, and look at nothing but the stars and the moon the entire night :D and the last time i actually felt like that was quite a few years ago, when we were still at our old house, cuz my study table looked out into the night sky and it was before that condo was built in front of my window and the stars were still forever pretty angels' eyes to an eight-year-old <3
and i sure hope i can stay this young at heart for as long as i live. like what i wrote for my last tribune article, this sort of spectacular natural beauty exists everyday - the difference is just whether we notice it, or not, and to a person who's a child at heart it'll always be wonderful(:
11:19 pm
Thursday, May 01, 2008
how to study for lit(:
how to study for lit(:the best way to, i mean.have really really good major lit discussions for hours on end! :D haha. i sorta feel bad though, cuz yiting and i stole quite a few hours of josh's time revising a lit text that he isn't even doing >< [actl i stole even more time than yiting ><] but hey it was one of the best discussions i actually had(: and i typed out all our points, and the entire discussion was about 3 and a half pages long, with 9pt line spacing instead of the usual 12 [easier to read, somehow.] font size 10, on top of that. which just goes to show that it was a really substantial discussion. with luck, and frequent reading of hedda gabler, i can actually do well for lit :D *crosses fingers and reads text at the same time!*thankyouthankyouthankyou haha i owe you one; God bless! (:and my tagboard is in desperate need of a defibrillator and/or cpr. hmm. 11:40 pm
Friday, May 30, 2008
secthree tcamp'08 <3! [and stargazing; again.] secthree tcamp'08 <3!
haha much as i was complaining my head off to anyone who would listen [sorry yiting for ranting like crap] because camp dates were changed so last-minute and so inconveniently, camp pwned. srsly. who cares if i only slept for half an hour on tuesday night/wednesday morning rushing philo and attempting and failing rather terribly to print it in 15 minutes [took one and a half hours rawr] and packing for camp [which i really did in 15 minutes yayy]; because everything turned out really well. haha i even had 2 hours to sleep in school while juniors were on urban hike xD thanks, God. yearmates/juniors, you guys rocked. really. :D and it was our last camp together; thank you for making it wonderful(:butbut. there was something about the fact that camp was on weds/thursday that i mind really really terriblyyy! ):because it meant i spent an entire day in school on tuesday discussing camp stuff when i only needed to go for 2 hours initially for cac selections, which meant i couldn't do philo until 7pm bahhhh. meaning that on tuesday night i couldn't do stuff that i normally do, like reading blogs. which normally would have been fine, except that this time, i never realised you were leaving on wednesday until today when i read your blog and you said there that you were leaving on weds ._.& my goodness i srsly can't believe i let you leave without wishing you luck and saying bye to you; i'm sorry! >< i'll miss you. in fact, i am already missing you.but in any case, God bless! and you know what i told you last year; i'll always think of all you overseas people when i look to the stars(:
Thursday, May 15, 2008
&where is everyone else..? &where is everyone else..?thanks for being there whenever i need you;but it just happens to be that when i really need someone to talk to the most, no one's around ):it's always great to see a bright green "heyy i'm online" vibe, [especially yours!]but today all i got faced with were walls ofblank,stonygrey icons. )':and you tell me that it'll be okay all the time so i'll believe it [and i did!], but this time, i don't see how it can be okay;
and i honestly need you to tell me that it will really be okay so i'll believe it and stop being so terribly upset like i've been for the entire day without someone to talk to. "Love has the power of making you believe what you would normally treat with the deepest suspicion." - Mirabeau< / 3 T^T
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
lit! :D lit! :D[was going to blog ytd but i zonked out mehh]lit was...amazingly unexpected. well at least the questions were, and the characters to discuss about were too! chose qn 2, which went somewhat like 'alienation is a central issue in hedda gabler. how do the characters in the play get alienated by other characters? discuss this with respect to 2 of the 3 characters: thea, ejlert, brack.' and okay i wasn't really expecting some easy theme like hedda's need for manipulation, but alienation was.. unanticipated. and the characters too - an 'obvious choice' of character for that 'would have been hedda, so i didn't put her as a choice', i quote dr sakhar. [well he did drop hints for us to focus on the peripheral characters, though]despite the unexpectedness of the question, i somehow managed to squeeze out a 2 page 5 line essay, all in an hour, with handwriting that was actually passable, and a gazillion times neater than my sa1 handwriting haha :D and the best thing was, it was one of the rare few lit essays i actually have some confidence in yayy. must be the effect of 9 hours of analysing half the play, and wonderfully animated lit discussions(: thanks a million! :Dand sry if i didn't talk much ytd, cuz you were busy, after all ><
Saturday, May 03, 2008
wonderfully and weirdly... wonderfully and weirdly... hmm wonderful and weird things are happening to me(: i wonder why; but i thank God nonetheless. tried to do lit today, spent almost 10 hours on re-reading and analysing the play. but it was taking so long i sorta gave up and asked yiting to analyse acts 2 and 4 for me cuz i was halfway through acts 1 and 3. i'm not sure why i took so long anyway, but i can guess; i know precisely why my brain wasn't working normally today. and i'm really proud that i analysed half the play by myself.
でも、あなたがいなかった；私たちは一緒にじゃない時、同じじゃないね。 but you weren't there, and it's not the same without you.
Friday, May 02, 2008
hmm stress-less myas? hmm stress-less myas?wheeee had a major de-stress session today with yiting and shinyi. somehow, though it's the myas already, and to add to that it's sec four myas, i don't feel particularly stressed [except when i am running out of time, or when i seem to have finished my essay but there's still like 5 minutes left and i have that nagging feeling that i left out some crucial point]. we ended up lounging in the library looking at lolcats and down at the piano in the foyer [i love that grand, even with its spoilt keys(:] for like what - 70% of the time we were in school >< add to that the fact that monday's actually our most stressful day, with chem and lit.
and i so am determined to get my 4.0 for chem this year, which i foresee will be more challenging than last year, following that absolutely terrible chem spa that i'm quite sure i failed, much as i hope not ._.
but hey i'm not complaining - it was a really good breather, and we did manage to get some stuff done anyway x). and things seem to be going well nowadays [like lit discussions! :D], even if things like test results weren't as good as i'd like them to be, and somehow, it doesn't seem to be terribly nerve-wracking for me. thank God for that, honestly(:
haha i don't know why, but i have this sudden desire to just go outdoors and lie down in a lovely field or something, and look at nothing but the stars and the moon the entire night :D and the last time i actually felt like that was quite a few years ago, when we were still at our old house, cuz my study table looked out into the night sky and it was before that condo was built in front of my window and the stars were still forever pretty angels' eyes to an eight-year-old <3
and i sure hope i can stay this young at heart for as long as i live. like what i wrote for my last tribune article, this sort of spectacular natural beauty exists everyday - the difference is just whether we notice it, or not, and to a person who's a child at heart it'll always be wonderful(:
Thursday, May 01, 2008
how to study for lit(: how to study for lit(:the best way to, i mean.have really really good major lit discussions for hours on end! :D haha. i sorta feel bad though, cuz yiting and i stole quite a few hours of josh's time revising a lit text that he isn't even doing >< [actl i stole even more time than yiting ><] but hey it was one of the best discussions i actually had(: and i typed out all our points, and the entire discussion was about 3 and a half pages long, with 9pt line spacing instead of the usual 12 [easier to read, somehow.] font size 10, on top of that. which just goes to show that it was a really substantial discussion. with luck, and frequent reading of hedda gabler, i can actually do well for lit :D *crosses fingers and reads text at the same time!*thankyouthankyouthankyou haha i owe you one; God bless! (:and my tagboard is in desperate need of a defibrillator and/or cpr. hmm.
i'm just the girl in the corner, the girl with the wistful eyes;
jiaying
seventeen! but that'll change on 220910 xD
rafflesian
113'05, 210'06, 315'07, 415'08 10S03P!
redcrosser passed out;
tribunist [vchair yay :D] said farewell;
but i'll never forget those days(:
archer! :D
still a writer, yep.
save me...
absolutely deranged
chocoholic
shopaholic
complete psychotic
stress-hater
panicky [i'm serious.]
unfortunately, more often than not, a broken rose.
... before i drive myself mad.
je t'aime;
rgsrcy
tribune
rj archery!
writers' guild!
reading! xD
dancing <3!
singing
going on facebook and playing random games there HAHA
grand pianos [oh, nothing beats a grand!]
black; pink; chocolate brown :D
astronomy; knitting; archeryyy(:
pool; bridge; mahjong! xD
chemistry! [favourite subject (:]
needless to say, we must never leave out the two essences of life, chocolate and shopping! i can never do without
them hahaha(x
for all life is a dream, and dreams themselves are only dreams;
ra science nahh no chance alr. but nevermind(:
>3.6 gpa [HAHA YES I DID IT FOR SECTHREE!(:]
tribune chair vchair's good enough. and in any case, my term's over anyway.
>3.6 SECFOUR gpa! YES I DID IT AGAIN! :D
rj chem ra! thank God i got in! :D
or uwc nordic! didn't apply; decided that specialising in sciences was the wiser choice, given my inaptitude
for humanities ><
rj dance! street/intl also can :D :Dbut nevermind, because rj archery pwns all now!
not forgetting the typical wish for world peace, duh. (:
and i wish i could have him. or at least, if we're not meant to be, someone to love
and to love me back. &it's true that love ends up being a battlefield sometimes, but it's still love; blessed
love.
for we were meant to last forever;
i find my paradise when you look me in the eyes-
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